It all starts with a moment of excitement
You wouldn’t know was fleeting at the time
But eventually the silences speak louder than rejection
Anticipation stops expecting anything at all
Maybe it’s somehow I have left you speechless
More likely you just view it as a chore
But in the sense that you know very well that I’m a friend
It must mean “go away” more than anything at all
That’s the problem with communicating nothing
The message understood might well be wrong
If I’m assuming too much or playing the victim
Then it’s at your invitation to feel anything at all
You can stop me anytime you want to set the record straight
I’d prefer to let the truth speak anyway
Maybe then you wouldn’t have to be a ghost without a voice
In our boxes made of windows, hoping it meant anything at all
I can sense my heart has left my chest
To wander through a wilderness
On the outside of a place of rest tonight
So in spite of all my clarity
I’m leaning on depravity
To drag me through this darkness to the light
Come settle me down
Take all my hunger
I’m here taking dives and pointing my fingers again
I’m trying to trust, but I am mostly pretending
This tug of war, will it ever end?
Seems every time I’m looking back
Seeing where life took a track
Away from some other crooked way
Still analysis paralysis
Leads back to the hypothesis
“I won’t come out this time okay”
Come settle me down
Take all my hunger
I’m here taking dives and pointing my fingers again
I’m trying to trust, but I am mostly pretending
This tug of war …
Come settle me down
Take all my hunger
I’m here taking dives and pointing my fingers again
I’m trying to trust, but I am mostly pretending
This tug of war, someday, one day I might win
I’ve been running all the numbers in my head
Remembering some things that have been said
Taking stock of every situation that I’ve read
And the indicators amber, green, and red
What if I arrest
This passion in my chest
Hold the notion captive in my head
Maybe she will never frown
If I can’t drag her down
With the anchor tethered to my heart instead
With the anchor tethered to my heart instead
Still some part of me just wants to set it free
To find out what is really meant to be
Let her go and see if maybe she returns to me
Or I’m only seeing what I want to see
Would she put to rest
This great question in my chest
Captivate me with her smile again
Would the yoke be too lopsided?
Would I be a house divided?
If it cannot be, then Lord I understand
If it cannot be, please help me understand
Oh the fullness of my joy
Can never be destroyed
But this isolation’s driving me insane
I could use another friend
Even though my worth does not depend
On a song to break the shackle from the chain
On a song to break the shackle from the chain
If my passion’s gone astray
Please just let it burn away
Take the coal, cleanse my lips and I’ll obey
Take the coal, cleanse me lips and I’ll obey
Come closer brother, hear me
You don’t need to run so far ahead
That I can’t see you
How many times have we stood strong together?
Why would we now choose to stand alone?
Why would we ever?
Why would we ever?
You can build a city to tower over me, that’s okay
Just please don’t falter, my brother, I pray
How many times have we stood strong together?
Why would we now choose to stand alone?
Why would we ever?
Why did we ever?
I don’t care that we’re grown
We can still share the load
Should I let you take me in?
Or set me back untouched?
Dig out a trap to wait where you rush?
Should I make haste to dive in?
Give God an ultimatum
to determine to drown if I don’t swim?
I’ve been dancing the shoreline, waiting for when
Some kind of sign says it’s safe to go in
I’m a fearless child ’til the tide rushes in
I stop at the edge and turn back again
Just dancing the shoreline
Should I go down to my knees?
Let you steal the ground beneath?
Until there’s nothing to steal left underneath?
Should I build up castles of sand?
Entice you to move in
Though they cannot withstand or contain you within?
I’ve been dancing the shoreline, waiting for when
Some kind of sign says it’s safe to go in
I’m a fearless child ’til the tide rushes in
I stop at the edge and turn back again
Just dancing the shoreline
Is it me? Are the sharks in my head?
Are the rip currents something I have misread?
Could the rocks be to jagged inside?
Could I lose my step and get crushed by the tide?
Is it coming or going?
A year ago I almost flew the coop
Went off to start over somewhere new
Another town, another blue, blue sky
Falling on my head
Another place to make my bed
In West Virginia
Colorado
Maybe Montana
Or Alaska
Or West Virginia
Oh I want frequent flier miles
And leave my baggage by the turnstiles
But then I feel the shockwave from the tiles
The cold, cold tiles of my bathroom floor
As they wake me from my dreaming all the more
Of West Virginia
Colorado
Maybe Montana
Or Alaska
Or West Virginia
A year ago I almost flew the coop
And went off to start over somewhere new
I spend my days breaking my back while you count my might
My family is starving at home while you slumber each night
Come down from your perch, you’re a little man aren’t you?
Come down where we stand, you’re a little man aren’t you?
You can stand on my shoulders, try all you want to be tall
You can cut me to size, but you’d still have to climb sycamores
Come down from your perch, you’re a little man aren’t you?
Come down where we stand, you’re a little man aren’t you?
How could he choose you?
Knowing all the you do?
How could he want to
be a guest in your house?
Zacchaeus, you’re a little man aren’t you?
Oh Jesus, you’re a little man aren’t you?
Yes I hold her tightly
Sometimes until dawn
Alone in the quiet
Singing our song
It’s a special connection
This bond that we share
But when it’s all over
There’s nothing else there
So please don’t count me out over
Something that you don’t understand
‘Cause I might be married to this guitar
But I’m looking for you
So don’t tell me it’s over
That we don’t have a chance
Girl we could have something
Something advanced
Where you are my woman
And I am your man
And you don’t feel threatened
Because you understand
That you can’t just count me out over
Something that you don’t need to change
‘Cause I might be married to this guitar
But I’m looking
I say but I’m looking
I say but I’m looking for you
Looking for you, ooh
One of the mysteries
I admit I’ve never solved
Is when to keep waiting
And when to move on
When I don’t want to seem needy
But I’m tired of being strung along
Is it simple and I’ve made it hard?
Is it less and I’ve made it more?
Have my actions betrayed my words?
Have my thoughts and feelings clouded my trust?
I don’t know, ooh
When you’re lonely thinking something’s got to give
And the weight you carry has made it hard to live
When you’re caught in a current that won’t let you go
Tell someone you’re drowning in stress
You don’t have to lay inside it like you’ve made it as a bed
There are ways to tame the dragons you have living in your head
Don’t keep waiting for a breakthrough that may never come instead
Set it free
When you’ve prayed and cried and plead and tried to wish it all away
But something in the chemicals is keeping you this way
When the mountain’s too big for your kernel of faith
Say it loud, you need help to find your peace
You don’t have to lay inside it like you’ve made it as a bed
There are ways to tame the dragons you have living in your head
Don’t keep waiting for a breakthrough that may never come instead
Set it free
When anxiety’s been lingering too long
And it’s time depression sang a different song
They say “God will never give you anymore than you can bear”
But your hands were never promised they would be the only pair
There are seven billion people who have burdens they need shared
Set it free
Talk to me